Every Girl Wants to be a Princess...

Every girl wants to be a princess. They want to have a handsome prince come after them and carry them far far away from the terrible world around them. Then when we get older we start realizing that rarely is this wonderful fairy tale true to real life.

All us girls carry scars with us. Some of the scars we did not ask for. They were imposed by the sick world around us. Other wounds we cause ourselves.

The truth of the matter is that it doesn’t matter the situation we are placed in, it’s how we react to that situation that becomes the sin. Lately there have been many cases where I have reacted badly. And I still carry the emotional scars from my self-inflicted wounds.

Once I believed in a dream of love. That love was perfect and pure. I would find this love and be surrounded in it, sing about it and dance my way to a blissful future of happiness.

I still dream of love. It’s because of the dream that I fall still. I discovered a long time ago that God was the only One who could ever fill the bottomless hole in my heart. But I thought to myself, doesn’t God say that there’s a perfect mate for most everyone? Why does it seem whenever I throw my heart out there I get burned? I never made the mistakes my best friends around me seemed to be making. I never went to parties, got drunk and compromised my morals. I never threw away my virginity for the instant gratification of a passionate night. I wear a promise ring that symbolizes my commitment to the one God has prepared for me.

Yet whenever I start to loose hope, feel regrets and anger at the scars I’ve carried and any faith in the future, I remember Him. He has done so many amazing things for me! He has lifted me out of the depths. He sees all things and He is in control of all things. My joy comes in Him.

And there is still this part of me that wants what I see in the movies. How Raoul rescues Christine in Phantom of the Opera. How Mr. Darcy silently pursues Elizabeth in Pride and Prejudice. How the Beast changes his ways and woos Belle in Beauty and the Beast. How we see Nathaniel literally fight his way to Cora in Last of the Mohiccans. How Henry defies all to come after Danielle in Ever After. There are countless examples of love, not in its perfections, but rather through its mistakes, it becomes something beautiful.

In pondering over these things God showed me one thing in the recurring theme of man’s perusal of his mate; He’s been pursuing me too. He pursued us from the beginning of time by making the world beautiful, giving us free will to choose to love Him. He pursued us in the Garden, when we walked with Him freely in our innocence. When His people failed Him again and again, when they abandoned Him, He showed us that He was there with them all along. He moved mountains, and shook up the foundations of the earth for us. He sent His Son to die for us so we could know Him in ways we were meant to from the beginning.

Some day my dream of love will be fulfilled, but until that day I know God is here already fulfilling it in every way it could be.